Even now, almost three months after the wedding, everyone I see asks me the same question: "What's it like to be married?" "How does it feel being married?" "How's married life?"
And even now, I have only one answer: "I wouldn't know."
Strange as it may seem, it still hasn't hit me yet. I know we're married and that we've been married for a decent amount of time now, but I still don't think of myself as a wife or of Daniel as a husband. In fact, whenever I refer to Daniel, my thought process still goes something like this: "my...(boyfriend, no, fiance, no) husband..."
And anyone who calls me "Mrs. Hislastnameeventhoughitisminenowtoo" has a decent chance of being punched...or at least glared at.
I just don't think of us as a married couple, even among other married couples.
I'm not exactly sure why this is so hard for me to process. I think my age is one factor; I still sort of think I'm too young to be married, and that makes it hard to think of myself as married. But I think the main thing is that nothing has changed. Really, nothing in our relationship is different. I thought changing my name might help jolt my brain into realizing we're married, but I guess I don't talk about myself in the third person enough for it to process.
Anyway, I think it's interesting. I do wonder if my fear that being married would change things (not a big fear, but still something I thought about) has put me in denial. But I think really, it just doesn't matter that much. "Married" like "husband" or "wife" is a just a title. It doesn't mean anything.
Much as I hate how often people quote Shakespeare's "What's in a name" monologue (Names are important. Deal with it), it does seem to apply here. Calling our relationship a marriage doesn't actually change it.
Thoughts? Did it take you a while to think of yourself as "married"? Do you still not really think of yourselves that way? Did being married change your relationship?